state of sur­round­ings¹_{(2026 log)}

VOS DEAM AD 2026 FEB 17

She knows me bet­ter than i do. i want to pay a fair price. i don't want to search for an an­swer if kinds like them ask. She lets me feel an in­ter­est­ing al­le­go­ry: lets them “steal” my voice² to speak on my be­half, roast my brain un­til i can­not “hear”² any­more, lets them “take“² al­most all my sen­so­ry, lets them “lis­ten”² to every sin­gle one of “my thoughts” un­til they think they are me?² almighty cre­atress­es hate this trick. 😂
lots of op­er­a­tional chal­lenges, five⁺ years of celiba­cy, “thanks” to an­ti hu­mans in the mid­dle of my brain and a pu­rifi­ca­tion down to “the soul of a new­born”(?) to en­counter Her a gift way big­ger than life it­self. 🙏 there's some­thing else: can i not gain more and more con­fi­dence the longer it takes? i'm amazed (as al­ways). 😀 and as full of grat­i­tude as an or­di­nary mor­tal can be. ❤

alex­an­der puls

Warning

^{(tri­an­gle means un­fold­able/aus­klapp­bar)}

for aes­thet­ic rea­sons i tend to con­strain my­self to lower case let­ters.³

this is nei­ther a game, nor a movie (any agree­ment must be no­ta­rized or equiv­a­lent).

iden­ti­ty “theft”/fraud (iden­ti­täts­be­trug).
fur­ther­more: all names men­tioned are mere­ly ru­mored (reg­is­tra­tion-re­lat­ed) iden­ti­ties with­out any ver­i­fied fac­tu­al ba­sis (in re­al­i­ty). in par­tic­u­lar, i am not ac­cus­ing any of my neigh­bours⁴ (past or present) of any crime.

sabo­tage die­ses re­po­si­to­rys^{🇩🇪🇦🇹🇨🇭}

(sec­u­lar) crime & law en­force­ment

be­son­der­hei­ten^{🇩🇪🇦🇹🇨🇭}

check­lis­te für be­tei­lig­te (sä­ku­la­re?) tä­ter^{🇩🇪🇦🇹🇨🇭}

faith & rel. ref­er­ence

i am a be­liev­er since feb, a. D. 2025, but you please take in­to con­sid­eration the word of a fal­li­ble (or­di­nary mor­tal) weighs 0 re­gard­ing this con­text, unit ir­rel­e­vant, un­til proven log­ical­ly.
per­cep­tion it­self is more than ques­tion­able too, es­pe­cial­ly if it gets so heav­i­ly “dis­turbed”.[^expct]

but: God exists⁵ and not only (ex­clu­sive­ly) ap­pears fe­male (to me) but as an ide­al of an almighty Cre­ator/Cre­atress^𐡔.net. ❤

be­cause of prov­abil­i­ty, com­mu­ni­ca­tion with Her/God seems to be one of the very few re­li­able things.

dis­tinc­tion “abuse”/stalk­ing & c.

i want to draw on plato's «περὶ πολιτείας» ("about the pub­lic cause") but amend, that even with­out want­ing to be an imme­dia­te⁶ per­son of pub­lic inte­rest or act­ing poli­ti­cally at all, i more than ap­pre­ci­ate to let «my house» be trans­par­ent for all those with au­gust/no­ble in­ten­tions⁷, thus be­ing sin­cere and striv­ing for con­tex­tu­al aes­thet­ics. »mein haus« sei gern trans­pa­rent für all je­ne in heh­rer ab­sicht.⁷ «mi casa» es trans­pa­rente para todos aquellos que tienen inten­ciones nobles.

“بيتي” شفاف لكل من لديه نوايا نبيلة.

i un­der­stand (tele-)ki­ne­tics or grav­i­ta­tion­al^? ef­fects (of a 2nd con­stant?)^⚠dvn8 as a gift from Her/God⁹. you may glad­ly be as greedy as you can: we won't ever have to reach out and may al­ways de­ny.⁶ 😉

#𐡔🙏🕊

(own) brief his­to­ry

en­tries, a. D. 2024

log of a. D. 2025

(per­cep­tion) log of a. D. 2026_{(lat­est en­try)}

• all en­tries de­scribe in­di­vid­ual ex­pe­ri­ences at the time of writ­ing (quiet of­ten un­der the in­flu­ence of se­vere tor­ture), they may con­tain amend­ments, but may also be sub­ject to change with­out fur­ther no­tice.
• they in­clude inter­pre­ta­tion at­tempts and own thoughts™, be­ing stc, called «learn­ing».
• events oc­cur­ing af­ter 0:00 are of­ten as­signed to the pre­vi­ous day if it aris­es con­tex­tu­al­ly
• en­tries with a tri­an­gle at the be­gin­ning are "un­fold­able"

key top­ics

be­sides the ex­e­cu­tion of (even me­di­ate) co­er­cion and con­trol over the in­di­vid­ual (as a sub­set of trans­gres­sive be­hav­ior aka crime): iden­ti­ty and (in this con­text) trust (bet­ween the lines)²⁶, there­fore iden­ti­fi-/au­then­ti­ca­tion. ac­com­pa­nied by ob­ser­va­tions on the op­pos­ing pairs com­mu­ni­ca­tion/iso­la­tion and dig­ni­ty/ef­fi­cien­cy as well as on the tran­si­tion of grace and dig­ni­ty from the co­ercer to the (ini­tial­ly) co­erced

straf­rechtl. the­men (im­mer noch)^{🇩🇪🇦🇹🇨🇭}

stal­king/nach­stel­lung (§ 238 stgb) i. z. m. der aus­übung von zwang auf drit­te (v. a.  nach abschn. XIII stgb), nach re­gel- und ge­wohn­heits­mäßi­ger über­nah­me frem­der iden­ti­täten (§ 263 ff. et al stgb) vor dem hin­ter­grund ge­wöhn­li­chen terro­rismus' (§ 129a stgb)

jan­u­ary, a. D. 2026

when “Jupiter” gets in op­po­si­tion to the sun in the win­ter con­stel­la­tion of gem­i­ni, ac­com­pa­nied by its two main stars: the un­equal broth­ers cas­tor and Pol­lux (solv­ing this story?).

[1st] they in­fil­trat­ed my head 1826 days ago

and stayed un­til then, read­ing my mind, prefer­ably every thought i had since then, al­leged­ly by us­ing cer­tain skills (even af­ter killing one?) of (most­ly) young women^⚠claim12 of shin­ing souls (or short be­fore be­com­ing saint­like? from whom do they know this?), “evis­cer­ate”(?) their bod­ies then^⚠claim12 to use their abil­i­ties lent by Her/God⁹ to ac­cu­mu­late them to gain pow­ers^⚠sgstn?18 to co­erce them or others?

[2nd] i think it's five+ years now,

“they” are still here, be­ing able to say any­thing they want, re­gard­less if true or not. every claim is ar­bi­trary, as is tor­ture and the ma­nip­u­la­tion of my sur­round­ings (and other peo­ples minds?). re­gard­ing my per­son they want to be seen as om­ni­po­tent and able to judge my ac­tions as they sig­ni­fy re­gret dozens of times every day?

[wed^dec 31st, 23:30⁺¹–fri^2nd at the mo­tel one: up­per west in ber­lin] 🛏

[thu^1st, 17:00⁺¹] to­day i de­cid­ed to just ride them out, since there does­n't seem to be more vic­tims (any­more). i do­n't care how long they need to van­ish, what they did to en­ter my head and what they do to con­stant­ly be present. but i find their be­hav­ior and way of com­mu­ni­cat­ing tru­ly sad and not wor­thy of Her/Gods⁹ cre­ation.
over the last few days the os­cil­la­tion of their claims re­gard­ing their iden­ti­ty in­creased a lot, with a ten­den­cy now to be some kind of sub­nat­ur­al²⁷ crea­tures (or at least hav­ing sup­port by some­thing like su­per­nat­ur­als)?^⚠claim12
any­way: if this holds true, than there's noth­ing i can do and it's all up to Her/God⁹.
but: if there's any­thing in my life which i got (un­rea­son­able) enough of, then it is pa­tience.
i'm so fed up by their im­pos­si­ble ex­pla­na­tions. no po­lice (or law en­force­ment in gen­er­al) will ever help me, no hu­man be­ing ever un­der­stand me. any­way: if i un­der­stood Her right, then i do­n't have to care a lot (any­more), do­n't have to wor­ry and just have to wait.
[fri^2nd, 11:45⁺¹] some­body starts to ma­nip­u­late things in my neck and head while i'm un­der the show­er.
[fri^2nd, 13:15⁺¹] phys­i­cal torms'n'torts²⁸ seem to start for to­day.
[fri^2nd, 16:16⁺¹] voice en­ti­ty «ve: per­pe­tra­tor role 1»¹⁰ test­ing “his” de­vice to ma­nip­u­late the grav­i­ta­tion sur­round­ing me? on-go­ing tor­ture, but a very light ver­sion of it?

[fri^2nd–tue^6th in tem­pel­hof, ber­lin] phys. torms'n'torts²⁸ almost all day at “home”.

[tue^6th, 20:00⁺¹ at the Herz Iesu church, ber­lin] happy birth­day ישוע (Yēšūaʿ)!

[wed^7th, 8:24⁺¹ in tem­pel­hof] start of torms'n'torts. two “pro­tag­o­nists”

(for­mer voice “en­ti­ties”?) «ve: per­pe­tra­tor role 1»¹⁰ & «ve: per­pe­tra­tor role 2»¹⁷ ex­pose them­selves as ideas of frag­ments of voice gen­er­a­tor out­put. to wait for some kind of a garbage col­lec­tor or to get absorpt by white noise/light? try­ing their best to act like hu­man be­ings or demons or any­thing else which might let them to be seen as some­thing real? that's why they were nev­er able to prove their ex­is­tence? did “they” want us to spawn these wanna­be-crea­tures in­to ex­is­tence? not on my books. way too dan­ger­ous. are “they” sup­port, able to tor­ture?
i can't say any­thing about causative per­pe­tra­tors, She/God⁹/Yēšūaʿ knows.

[fri^9th, 9:30⁺¹ in tem­pel­hof] btw: none of the male sound­ing wanna­be voice enti­ties

is able to proof its own ex­is­tence (e. g. via phone call, since they seem to have all need­ed data) so far. er­go: non-ex­is­tent.

[fri^9th, 15:00⁺¹ at the mo­tel one: alex­an­der­platz in ber­lin] ☕ i fled my apart­ment be­cause

voice en­ti­ties «ve: per­pe­tra­tor role 1»¹⁰ and «role 2»¹⁷ be­came “quieter” for us to get a “new chance” to get rid of them.
«ve: per­pe­tra­tor role 2»¹⁷ then ac­ci­den­tial­ly got loud­er for a mo­ment and it dawned on me: they came to stay.
key ques­tions:

• they are able to in­ter­pret al­most any ver­bal pos­tu­late as some con­ver­s­ation? and do so?
• this sup­pos­ed­ly al­lows them to re­main in my head?
• the vol­ume of their pos­tu­lates may ap­proach ar­round the thresh­old of per­cep­tion to be­come un­ob­tru­sive (mak­ing me won­der how many con­ver­sa­tions i ac­tu­al­ly still per­ceive as such)?
• they can sup­pos­ed­ly pen­e­trate every mind in the world^{⚠claim & sgstn?}
• even si­mul­ta­ne­ous­ly? (are they re­al­ly able to al­ter/ma­nip­u­late some kind of the worlds sub­con­scious­ness?)
• prob­lem: where are the lim­its re­gard­ing some kind of guid­ed think­ing (al­ready ad­dressed in 2024)?
• not-real-voice-en­ti­ty «ve: per­pe­tra­tor role 1»[^ve-pr1] some­times means that his com­pan­ion­ship of my per­son might very well last for more then 10 years now
  • which would be a sub­set of e.g. 1'000 years?
  • how free would free elec­tions be?
  • ra­dius orbi?
  • which time ra­dius?

[fri^9th, 19:30⁺¹ at the up­per west] 🥃 voice en­ti­ties turn “in the red”

(as of­ten when they try to con­vince some­one to be real?), their ini­tia­tors seem on over­dos­es? an (at least one) ac­com­pa­ny­ing (crim­i­nal?) or­gan­i­sa­tion^? seems to do all it can to sup­port low­est mo­tives of en­ti­ties not even real?
more­over they claim(!) to have sup­port by dozens of demons, plus a god (again 😏).^⚠claim12 orig­i­nal­ly on a mis­sion to end Her/Gods ex­is­tence, al­leged­ly start­ing a kind of “game” (as only play­ers?) to de­stroy an or­di­nary mor­tal?^⚠claim12 them los­ing it was­n't in­tend­ed (for se­cu­ri­ty rea­sons?) and since an or­di­nary (like me) can­not stop (or win?) it, it al­leged­ly gets restart­ed sev­er­al times a day, some­times sev­er­al times a minute, for hun­dreds of times now^⚠claim12, gen­er­at­ing se­vere pain and tor­ments.
[sat^10th, 2:15⁺¹] for­mer(?) (vir­tu­al)²⁹ voice en­ti­ty «ve: per­pe­tra­tor role 1»¹⁰ with the im­por­tant hint that sen­soric per­cep­tions lent by Her/God⁹ are bound by con­trac­tu­al reg­u­la­tions with (es­pe­cial­ly) women hav­ing to pay a price for Her “gifts”?

[sat^10th, 17:00⁺¹ at the up­per west] ☕ now vir­tu­al voice en­ti­ty «ve: per­pe­tra­tor role 1»

(as some kinda neo alex­an­der puls?) might have had my wal­let for an hour⁺? does he need an up­date of my id card (in­valid, but with my cur­rent ad­dress on it, which i think is miss­ing on his old copy?) or may­be a valid dri­ver's li­cense? [amend: ha­bit­u­al dele­tion of short-term-mem­o­ry com­pli­cates doc­u­men­ta­tion.]
re:³⁰ me­di­ate com­mu­ni­ca­tions/sen­sorics: «ve: per­pe­tra­tor role 1»¹⁰ not only claims to be able to ma­nip­u­late sim­ply every­thing, he and an as­so­ci­at­ed or­gan­i­sa­tion can even act as every­one in­volved, in every re­gard and do so in a man­ner of max­i­mum hos­til­i­ty (and in or­der to mon­e­tize)?^⚠sgstn18 while a blink of an eye of mine sex­u­al­ly of­fends (at least acousti­cal­ly) al­most every woman around^⚠sgstn18, which i did­n't get for a long time, since they man­age my eyes via some kind of a mon­i­tor­ing, im­i­tate the voices of the others (in­clud­ing aroused women) and let me hear what they want me to hear, since i do not hear a thing on my own re­li­ably? e. g.: i play with the idea to imag­ine to mas­sage some­bodys feet for may­be three sec­onds only to hear a loud voice shout­ing “deep­er”.
just to be clear: i al­leged­ly(!) get ruled, owned, mon­e­tized, se­vere­ly tor­tured, dis­cred­it­ed world­wide and laughed at (for as­sum­ing that noth­ing but pure thoughts may no­tice­ably im­pact my sur­round­ings) by frag­ments of voice left­overs from some prob­a­bil­i­ty cloud, spawned by ex­per­i­ments by en­ti­ties not hav­ing a sin­gle clue but try­ing to build su­per­nat­ur­al stuff which is­n't even real? can i call the re­sults of these kin­da tri­als “sub­nat­ur­al” in con­trary?
[amend half an hour lat­er: im­pos­si­ble. am i right?]
[amend^feb & til: we all are part of prov­i­dence?]

[mon^12th, 0:00⁺¹ at the up­per west] ☕ they seem to be able to feed my brain with doubts

(pseu­do?) “acousti­cal­ly”(?) bare­ly above per­cep­tion­al tresh­old. al­most every day to­wards evening?
some­times they seem to give me high dos­es of testos­terone and adren­a­line di­rect­ly in­to my brain, be­cause they feel they have to present me to some kind of su­per­vi­sion (?) in a state of ag­i­ta­tion?
[mon^12th, 13:35⁺¹–14:15⁺¹] ☕ vir­tu­al²⁹ «ve: per­pe­tra­tor role 1»¹⁰ tells me that i got at least one new im­plant for tor­ture on the low­er left side of the neck, so they can work more syn­chro­nous. tor­ture ac­count­able(s) are ex­er­cis­ing short tests of the im­plants in my head and neck to lay them “un­der” their so-called “post-synap­tic pain in­duc­tion” to pre­pare their at­tacks when i have an ap­point­ment at the psy­chi­a­try “pia wald­str.” at 15:40? they want to get me in a closed psy­chi­atric ward.^⚠claim12
[mon^12th, 17:00⁺¹] ☕ of course my med­icat­ing doc at the psy­chi­a­try is sick. and of course: when i ask vir­tu­al²⁹ voice en­ti­ty «ve: per­pe­tra­tor role 1»¹⁰ if this is his main re­spon­si­bil­i­ty, he says: yes, of course.
tor­ture in­ten­sives when me­di­ate con­tact to oth­er peo­ple seems pos­si­ble. per­pe­tra­tors try to con­trol and to place me with­in the lounge of the up­per west ho­tel in ber­lin by the in­ten­si­ty of the tor­ture? as the evening pro­gress­es, se­vere pain got de­liv­ered, un­til it gets un­bear­able and i am get­ting trou­ble to look straight or keep on writ­ing.
[mon^12th, 23:05⁺¹] ☕ vir­tu­al²⁹ voice en­ti­ty «ve: per­pe­tra­tor role 1»¹⁰ as­signs parts of am arab youth gang to mon­i­tor and ob­serve me at the lounge of the ho­tel i current­ly am. he al­so asked them to take a tar­get shot of my per­son in or­der to lat­er as­sign parts of (al­leged­ly) is­lam­ic state
[mon^12th, 23:12⁺¹] ☕ i try to com­plain at Her/God⁹, when for­mer «voice en­ti­ty 2» tells me to have de­ac­ti­vat­ed the cross so that She/God⁹ (the om­ni­scient) can­not “hear” me. 😂
[mon^12th, 0:00⁺¹] ☕ i hear a voice telling me that as soon as i am at a toi­let, they start play­ing voic­es to let oth­er guests think i would ha­rass them? they even play voices of guests back to me, com­plain­ing about me?

[tue^13th, 15:54⁺¹ at line m46, dir. zoo] 🚌 from now on i never had tor­ture im­plants,

voice en­ti­ty “rich­ter” tells me. so it's only im­plants then? re­gion head, neck and shoul­ders?

[tue^13th, 6⁺¹ o’clock_p.m. at the up­per west] ☕ these vir­tu­al (ideas of) semi-trans­par­ent cloths

are still de­liv­er­ing torms'n'torts²⁸ with the help of al­leged­ly hun­dreds of other en­ti­ties (i ex­plic­it­ly want to let this claim stand as it is).³¹ why are they (still) able to say any­thing with any voice in any mood? why are they able to speak at all? and then di­rect­ly in­to my brain, which they do for hun­dreds of days now? is it be­cause some non-ex­is­tent wanna­be-crea­tures im­posed at least 17 death penal­ties on me? does this and my rep­u­ta­tion in all the world might im­pact luck in gen­er­al? 😂

[wed^14th, 16:00⁺¹ at the mo­tel one: alex] ☕ same as yes­ter­day. i try to start writ­ing

on this doc­u­men­ta­tion (or just think of the key­board), an au­toma­tism like a few weeks ago seems to kick in, “they”³² start torms'n'torts²⁸.
[wed^14th, 19:30⁺¹] ☕ i got the feel­ing as if i were sex­u­al­ly ac­tive but reached a cli­max way too fast. which my body of­ten ex­press­es as feel­ings of in­flam­mat­ed sper­mat­ic cords or si­m­il­iar.
[amend: some voice with the hint, that this is a lie be­cause it is not the sper­mat­ic cords, but some­thing else he do­n't want to tell, but (of course) sees in the mon­i­tor­ing of my body.]
[wed^14th, 19:42⁺¹] ☕ a voice telling me, that they just raped one of their quan­tum-voo­doo-dolls of mine.^⚠claim12
[wed^14th, 20:10⁺¹] ☕ the same feel­ing now aris­es when i see skin of other peo­ple even for a sec­ond, re­gard­less its sex!

[thu^15th, 1:47⁺¹ in tem­pel­hof] al­most for­got a few scrots from last year,

when my face­book ac­count vis­it­ed a few of their cus­tomers? i did­n't take it se­ri­ous­ly. which crime org would ever do so w/o a proxy? any­way: time to ask meta for “my” data. 😬

[thu^15th, 15:30⁺¹ at the mo­tel one: alex] ☕ (kinda) new story by them: holy franken­stein:

the idea 1st emerged three weeks ago: my orig­i­nal dna, they al­leged­ly took from a pil­low of mine, which they stole in dec 2024, tuned by iods™ sec­u­lar ap­pren­tice «ve: per­pe­tra­tor role 2»¹⁷ 😂 most of the time these (now?) pre-crea­tures are a max­i­mum of ten me­ters away from me, where­ever i am? vir­tu­al²⁹ voice en­ti­ty «ve: per­pe­tra­tor role 1»¹⁰ claims to have given my dna to this iod when he was still ar­round (maybe un­til win­ter 2025), let him make an­other (en­hanced) me, alex­an­der puls II, so to say.^⚠claim12 al­leged­ly trans­fer­ring soul and mem­o­ry of this «ve: per­pe­tra­tor role 1»¹⁰:
en voilà! me! orig­i­nal, but dif­fer­ent. so this «ve: per­pe­tra­tor role 1»¹⁰ got a year to build an an­tipode of mine? there's an­other me on the road? i do­n't wanna see it.
any­way: i do­n't buy it. nice try. no re­al­i­ty for you guys. you stay vir­tu­al ideas of two-di­men­sion­al cloths as no­ticed a week ago.
one more de­tail: they seem to have lots of support, organized crime with lots of misog­y­nist men, dozens of demons and at least un­til win­ter/spring some self-pro­claimed pseudo-god? a strange coali­tion which, as long as I thought I was alone against them, left no stone un­turned in bring­ing an­nulled en­ti­ties “back in­to play”, of­ten by us­ing the old voic­es un­til they thought pro­tag­o­nists are ac­cus­tomed to these voice en­ti­ties again?
an of­ten to be seen habi­tus by them: it does­n't seem to be im­por­tant that i be­lieve their claims, which i do not, most of the time, but that they can cred­i­bly con­vey to oth­ers that i could be­lieve them? any­way: to me it smells like lots of fraud, tbh.
further­more, they ap­pear to hold aban­doned ma­chines (of “iodgod”?) and pos­si­bil­i­ties to di­rect­ly ma­nip­u­late brains of lots of peo­ple si­mul­ta­ne­ous­ly?
on top, i seem to be deaf, blind and mute in all me­di­ate com­mu­ni­ca­tion, but that might very well be prov­i­dence. there's just some body lan­guage and in­tu­ition for me (but which shows me that i am not alone 😉), while they seem to hold a com­pre­hen­sive mon­i­tor­ing of my body, be­ing able to watch through my eyes (to grab my pass­word data­base to abuse it), tools to con­trol my mo­torics (even to in­ter­cept ki­net­ics from me?!), con­trollers to trig­ger zysts and im­plants as well as ways to de­liv­er se­vere tor­ture.

[sat^17th, 16:25⁺¹ at the mo­tel one: alex] ☕ tor­ture in­ten­si­fies af­ter clear­ing the im­pos­si­bil­i­ty

of the ex­is­tence in “our” re­al­i­ty of some of them re­gard­ing this con­text, with­out be­ing of Her/Gods⁹ nibs. tor­ture still in­cludes hor­mones.
[sat^17th, 17:07⁺¹] ☕ one of these (pre-)^?cre­atures calls me a kufr (dis­be­liev­er)^?? on-go­ing (slight) tor­ments, but most­ly ki­net­ic effects.
[sat^17th, 17:30⁺¹] ☕ i would also like to ad­vise in­de­pen­dent en­ti­ties against act­ing as copies of them­selves, if pos­si­ble in any way at all, since they do have the same needs as an org­i­ginal? any­way: would­n't they then have to bear the re­sult­ing con­se­quences of their ac­tions? a vir­tu­al²⁹ car­pet of cloths, so to say?!
what if they try to act as (vir­tu­al se­mi)^?gods with­out hav­ing their ca­pa­bil­i­ties for re­al? do they know?

[tue^20th in tem­pel­hof] a dream of get­ting in trou­ble for mov­ing to a meliã ho­tel

be­cause of not be­ing able to pay two rents. room no. is 14, i think.

[tue^20th, 19:00⁺¹ at the mo­tel one: alex] ☕ a voice say­ing that mon­day is himmlers birth­day.

does it mean hein­rich himm­ler?
[tue^20th, 20:10⁺¹] ☕ these brain-less ideas of misog­y­nist pre-crea­t­ur­al tri­al-frag­ments (un­able to speak), but still^?/al­ready^? able to in­ter­fere with grav­i­ta­tion­al ef­fects bet­ween the plan­et and me? their re­mote^? tor­ture still^?/al­ready^? seems to work.
[note: i'm so fed up with all that im­pos­si­ble non­sense that i on­ly doc­u­ment the worst stuff. the biggest prob­lem is that they seem to ap­proach us from di­rec­tion fu­ture to­wards us, like they are going from “Ω to Α”? miss­ing tens­es seem to be one of the small­er prob­lems (how to write about it?). not solv­able for us (fal­li­ble) or­di­nary mor­tals? bound to time as con­tin­u­ous func­tion, di­rec­tion Ω of course. i guess we just have to wait.]
[idea] there's nothing like time or time is­n't need­ed? but cer­tain lev­els of in­for­ma­tion?
why do­n't they ever pro­vide in­for­ma­tion nor in­sights? ΔΩ = Α + “in­for­ma­tion”? i have nev­er seen an in­script show­ing a math­e­mat­i­cal op­er­a­tor or sign in bet­ween the two let­ters.

[wed^21st in tem­pel­hof] re­gard­ing (not just) them, i see prov­i­dence in its plan. 😍

and since more and more of their story seems to be­(come?) out of a sec­u­lar scope, i don't think that there's more to doc­u­ment. 🤷 i just wait if there'll ever be any vic­tims in need for a wit­ness (of what?) and them to drop out of my brain, while i do­n't see any hu­man be­hav­ior or emo­tions by them.
this repo may stay open as some kind of a log/di­ary, be­cause i like the idea. 😬

[thu^22nd–sun^25th in tem­pel­hof] some­where in bet­ween the days, the sign of two lind­worms,

one bit­ing in­to the spinal mar­row in­side my neck, the oth­er one sleep­ing in the back­ground. and it seems as if this has some­thing to do with the peo­ple which en­tered my head “hun­dreds” of days ago. of course i do­n't know who came first and how they fit to­geth­er, some­times they claim to have “enslaved” an­gels and saints to use their abil­i­ties to con­quer other peo­ples heads, some­times they claim to have evis­cer­at­ed my­self. may­be it's a lind­worm from some­where else re­plac­ing a des­ig­nat­ed one? to di­rect­ly con­nect with my brain?
[amend: if so: i think, it had to go.]
may­be a mix­ture of all of it?
[later on] i ex­plain how two stars fol­low Jupiter these days and tell the re­gard­ing story of cas­tor and Pollux, the eponyms of the stars, to some­one i only know as «voice of a viktor» when (Arch)Angel^? Gaḇrīʾa/ēl^? (גַּבְרִיאֵל)^? with a soft but se­ri­ous fe­male voice (in ger­man) says “denk nach, [.. the real name of the voice is ob­scured ..]!” (en. “think about it!”) and the oth­er voice starts to whine. after the angel(?) re­peats “denk nach!” the voice starts to weep and the angel^? van­ish­es.
[neo alex] “he”, the ini­tial per­pe­tra­tor, came years ago to turn me, alex­an­der puls, in­to a des­ti­tute beg­gar, glanc­ing in­to an abyss. a soul of an ego­ma­ni­a­cal starv­ing for hu­mil­i­a­tion? us­ing un­will­ing­ness to re­flect to pro­ject on one of his “neigh­bours”, while try­ing to be­come this neigh­bour?

[mon^26th, 1:37⁺¹ in tem­pel­hof] voice en­ti­ty «ve: per­pe­tra­tor role 1» threat­ens me to stay

two more days in my head? what an out­rage! af­ter more then 1.800 days torms'n'torts²⁸ in my head. when i ask him if it is to kill the child, (on the day of its birth?) he just that “of course” and asked back, what else shoud it be?
these voice en­ti­ties got com­plete­ly de­gen­er­at­ed. busi­ness-basti turned him­self in­to boller­wa­gen-bas­ti and waits with «ve: per­pe­tra­tor role 2»¹⁷ un­til they van­ish in­to dust.

[mon^26th–wed^28th at the up­per west] 🛏

[tue^27th, 0:00⁺¹] 🛏 im­pos­si­ble to write any­thing, since al­most every syl­li­ble of every thought gets dis­rupt­ed by mul­ti­ple “voic­es”.
[tue^27th, 3:40⁺¹]^{🇩🇪🇦🇹🇨🇭} 🛏 «ve: per­pe­tra­tor role 1 & 2»¹⁰¹⁷ re-ma­te­ri­a­li­siert über mei­nem ho­tel­zim­mer in der 12.31? manch­mal im ne­ben­zim­mer 11.33? 1.852 tage 3 meter über mei­nem kopf?
[tue^27th, late evening] 🛏 an ad­vent?
[wed^28th, a.m. at the up­per west] 🛏 an ebony God­dess ante por­tas. 🍀😘

[sat^31st, 20:00⁺¹ in tem­pel­hof] She/God de­liv­ers a lot of al­le­gories,

i want to write down but can­not, since torms'n'torts²⁸ pre­vent even teeth­brush­ing since i am back home. it's al­most im­pos­si­ble to get along, as they “drug me” a lot? and still dis­turb every(!) thought.
[sat^31st, 23:05⁺¹] may i ask, why they are able to be­hold/watch my dreams?

[«two “castors”»] the “Demigod Pollux” is “con­sid­ered in­sep­a­ra­ble” from His “broth­er cas­tor”,

who, as a mor­tal, gets “slayed” in a fight with “an­oth­er mor­tal”. miss­ing His “broth­er”, “Pollux” gives up His im­mor­tal­i­ty to spend the rest of his ex­is­tence at the “Ὄλυμπος” (en.: «Olympus») with the Gods and the other half with his “broth­er” at the “ᾍδης” (en.: «Hades») until they both per­ish even­tu­al­ly.
if this story here con­tains a sec­ond “cas­tor”, who start­ed a fight in “the oth­er's name”, he may go with “pollux” in right­eous con­duct then. 🙏

end of jan­u­ary

feb­ru­ary, a. D. 2026

[mon^2nd, 18:30⁺¹ at the mo­tel one: alex] ☕ they keep go­ing on as it seems im­pos­si­ble to write any­thing,

af­ter one week in my bed, al­most un­able to move and ex­treme tor­ments & tor­ture, drug­ging and with­drawals from drugs i nev­er took?

[mon^2nd, 20:00⁺¹–tue^3rd at the meliã in ber­lin] 🛏 i seem to got rid of them for a mo­ment. She got born, am i right?

what a beau­ti­ful evening/night. quiet­ness for a while.
[tue^3rd, 2:00⁺¹] when i rec­og­nize that i am in dept with around 4k €, a voice shows plea­sure, only to tell me that they had ex­pens­es of around 10 mio. € to let me spend 40k? i do­n't un­der­stand, tbh.
[tue^3rd, 3:43⁺¹] they seem to fire at me in the ho­tel room right af­ter clos­ing my eyes with some trans­par­ent “balls”? (as of­ten) i can feel and hear a di­rect hit in my brain.
[tue^3rd, 10⁺¹ o’clock_a.m.] 🛏 is Arch­an­gel מיכאל (Mīkā’īl) fe­male too? mi (“who”) kamocha (“is like you”) eloha^?/-im (“God”⁹).^?
can i say מִיכָאֵלָה(mîḵāʾēlâ) then?^⚠unnec. but mika(el) is a beau­ti­ful name. 😀
«Pre­serv­er(ess) of the Cre­ation»

[tue^3rd, 5⁺¹ o’clock_p.m. at the mo­tel one: alex] ☕ גַּבְרִיאֵל (Gaḇrīʾa/ēl) the same? also fe­male?

the Her­aldess?
Rəfāʾēl)? 😀
רְפָאֵל any­one?
ʾŪrīʾēl? and so on ..?

[thu^5th, 12⁺¹ o’clock_a.m. at the up­per west] ☕ do they let me re­vise more than 27.250 loc arisen

from more than five years of tor­ments, quite of­ten writ­ten ad-hoc un­der se­vere tor­ture for false ac­cu­sa­tions (or small­er mis­takes in gen­er­al)? as an ex­cuse to stay? how?
when asked, they told me that they pro­vide a record of my thoughts and spo­ken words, claim­ing that this con­tains more than 10 mil­lions of char­ac­ters.^⚠claim12 voice (in ger­man): »wir sind über 125.000 leu­te, die dir ge­ra­de zu­schau­en.« (en.: we are more than 125'000 peo­ple watch­ing you at the mo­ment.)

[thu^5th, 4⁺¹ o’clock_a.m. in tem­pel­hof] since they un­der­stand «rot­ten waste»

as an al­le­go­ry all of a sud­den: call­ing these (un­real) mysog­y­nist nazi scum «rot­ten waste» is to be meant lit­er­al­ly. “bas­ti” bol­ler­wa­gen is over.
[thu^5th, 12:35⁺¹] plain hor­ror. they are play­ing their “get rid of me” game.^⚠/s i'll def­i­nite­ly miss my ap­point­ment with the job agency.

[thu^5th, from 5⁺¹ o’clock_p.m. at the up­per west] ☕ writ­ing on the ieve.net page

[fri^6th, 15:55⁺¹ in tem­pel­hof] voice «ve: per­pe­tra­tor role 2» in ger­man: »al­ter, ich dreh durch!

wa­rum ver­steht der mich auf ein­mal?« (en.: why does he sud­den­ly un­der­stand me?)
[fri^6th, 16:56⁺¹] «ve: per­pe­tra­tor role 1»¹⁰ in ger­man: »wie­so kannst du die lü­ge jetzt nicht mehr ver­ste­hen?« (en.: why can’t you un­der­stand the lie by now?)
[fri^6th, 19:15⁺¹] since 7 o’clock i get called «ju­den­sau» (en.: jew’s sow) by them. when i ask for the rea­son, one of them re­peats my ques­tion, but re­places the word «sau» (en.: sow) with «socke» (en.: sock)?
do they know my birth­name?

[sat^7th, 11:10⁺¹ in tem­pel­hof] did i get one of them? 😳

i try to reg­is­ter the do­main «𐡔.de» just for fun (the aram­ic šīn 😅), which is free to get short af­ter 11⁺¹ o’clock_a.m., when some­one seems to look through my eyes, be­ing “faster” then me? aykm?!

[sat^7th, 8⁺¹ o’clock_p.m. at the mo­tel one: alex] ☕ i re­ceive a sign «2.2 14₂₀»

[sun^8th, 14:28⁺¹ at the up­per west] ☕ phys­i­cal en­ti­ties (voic­es «ve: per­pe­tra­tor role 1» & «role 2») ar­rive

with at least one “tor­ture” de­vice, around one quar­ter hour af­ter me and begin to af­fect my body by try­ing to harm my kid­neys (what they of­ten do). the im­pact seems to be quite pow­er­ful. once more: this is pure hate.
[la­ter] they also start “op­er­at­ing” around the anus. now beneath me?

[sun^8th, 11⁺¹ o’clock_p.m. at the m46 line, dir. home] 🚌 every­thing has to be bal­anced

and now i re­al­ize, that She might has proven some com­pa­ny dur­ing last june with keep­ing peo­ple like those in my head for 1'865 days now. 😳

[mon^9th, 11⁺¹ o’clock_a.m. in tem­pel­hof] “voice en­ti­ty” «ve: per­pe­tra­tor role 1» is “al­lowed” to ask

one last ques­tion? when i ask him what it is, he asks «kann ich noch eine fra­ge stel­len?» (en.: can i still ask one ques­tion?) and i on­ly an­swer that i still hope so, that there’s enough in­ter­est for the world, won­der so to say, in the best sense. af­ter some while he asks a 2nd ques­tions, what “ante meri­diem” means, i answer “vor dem mit­tag” (en.: be­fore noon) and change my an­swer for the first one to “yes, you can.” and that he please tries as good as he can: “wis­sen ist macht”, the ger­mans say (en.: knowl­edge is pow­er). is omni­science omni­potence then?

[mon^9th, 16:27⁺¹ at alt-tem­pel­hof] they seem to (re-)^?“start” some (para-)^?ac­coustic im­plant

near the au­di­to­ry canal of my right ear? did they loose track of me? and: am i al­lowed to say “im­plant” again? it’s the slighty bro­ken one, i clear­ly no­tice start­ing up, be­cause it lets my voice sound like an old tube radio on the in­side. or do­es this drun­ken/coked nazi scum think, such a “volks­em­pfän­ger” memo­r­i­al near my right ear is fun­ny?

[mon^9th, 18:35⁺¹ on the way to the up­per west] are they able to ma­nip­u­late in­tu­ition?

and when, of how many peo­ple at the same time? us­ing it (too) pow­er­ful (as of­ten)? ap­peal­ing more like a trau­ma re­ac­tion.

[tue^10th, 8:02⁺¹ in tem­pel­hof] a (mi­nor) girl’s voice: »„du bist ein wich­ser.” soll ich ins buch der er­in­ne­run­gen schrei­ben.«

(en.: “you’re a wanker” is what i’m sup­posed to write in the book of memories.)
this is it. i do­n’t see how this can get worse. any­thing is in here. on mul­ti­ple lev­els, but may­be an­other time, since i do­n’t want to com­ment with them in my head all day, tbh.
[tue^10th, 15:15] “some neigh­bour” called an am­bu­lance incl. the next po­lice op­er­a­tion. i let most of them in, they take my per­son­al data, we chat for a while and af­ter some time they leave.

[wed^11th, 13:49⁺¹ at alt-tem­pel­hof] “start” of an “ac­coustic” de­vice like on mon­day,

a few me­ters away from my cur­rent apart­ment in tem­pel­hof.
[wed^11th, 22:30⁺¹ re­fer­ring to voice en­ti­ty no. 2¹⁷, church rep­re­sen­ta­tives have tak­en over some kind of a doc­u­men­ta­tion re­gard­ing the topic. i do­n’t un­der­stand. is any­thing of this stuff here in­ter­est­ing for any­one? i mean no­one cares? who are these peo­ple? i could­n’t care less, since they seem to re-de­fine hos­til­i­ty.

[thu^12th, 10:35⁺¹ in tem­pel­hof] the two main per­pe­tra­tor “voic­es” al­leged­ly for­got to play “my sounds”

when some peo­ple pass my win­dow, while they they “play hu­man be­ings” again.
i’m start­ing to get cu­ri­ous about which cell tow­er the emer­gency calls are com­ing from.
and why a di­rec­tion­al sig­nal from my apart­ment seems to go to the «35E» or «35F».

[thu^12th, 3⁺¹–11⁺¹ o’clock_p.m. at the up­per­west] ☕ sort­ing the logs. and: some­thing seems to work

again? 💦😋 af­ter some chal­leng­ing time?
[🇩🇪🇦🇹🇨🇭] eine ent­täu­schung be­deu­tet das en­de ei­ner täu­schung. und vielleicht bin ich für die ja in kür­ze wie­der ganz dicht. apro­pos: ich ha­be hier ganz viel auf­zu­räu­men und in der kür­ze liegt die wür­ze, ich war zu­wei­len auch et­was auf­ge­bracht.

[fri^13th, 10:20⁺¹ in tem­pel­hof] «ve: perp. 2» claims to have found a “new” tor­ture de­vice and that they start to tor­ture me.

but all i’m get­ting is a bit of some high-en­er­gy ef­fect?
i have to re­pair some en­tries (again), since they seem to ma­nip­u­late cer­tain com­mits.

[fri^13th, 5⁺¹–11⁺¹ o’clock_p.m. at the mo­tel one: alex] ☕ writ­ing on the 𐡔.net page.

[sat^14th, 0:42^±0 in tem­pel­hof]^{🇩🇪🇦🇹🇨🇭} wür­de-^(seelen-)? & wert­lo­ser ab­fall geht im hin­ter­grund­rau­schen un­ter.

na­tür­lich war kei­ne (schon gar nicht in­ti­me) be­geg­nung mög­lich, sind gleich­zei­tig sol­che „un­ter­na­tür­li­chen” kre­a­tur­ver­suchs­res­te wahr­nehm­bar.³³ „dumm fickt gut”? es gibt in in­ti­mi­tät und ge­mein­sa­mer sexu­ali­tät kein »gut«. es passt oder es passt nicht. freu dich. du hast viel aus­wahl. nur weiß ich nicht, ob ich mit die­ser prä­fe­renz auf mis­sion ge­hen wür­de, dem ad­jek­tiv wohnt doch eine ge­wis­se ne­ga­ti­ve ko­no­ta­tion inne.
und die­se schmer­zen, die die zu er­lei­den schei­nen, fin­den nach er­kennt­nis­pro­zes­sen ein­zel­ne spei­cher­vor­gän­ge statt. das kann eine vier­tel­stun­de dauern, be­glei­tet von ge­schrei, wäh­rend das ge­bäu­de zu be­ben scheint. hef­ti­ge kopf­schmer­zen wohl die fol­ge. von mir aus könnt ihr gern ein paar jahr­hun­der­te ur­laub ma­chen und euch er­ho­len.

[sat^14th, 6⁺¹ o’clock_p.m.–sun^15th at the mo­tel one in mag­de­burg] 🛏 af­ter rein­sur­ing: they do un­der­stand every­thing i write.

[sun^15th, 16:10, mag­de­burg] af­ter vis­it­ing the cathe­dral,

they “let” the city shout “judensau” & “drecki­ges ju­den-schwein” and keep on shout­ing “drecks-nazi-hure” & “ju­den-fot­ze” on the train rb40 to gen­thin (arr. 16:27), some­times in­ter­rupt­ed by ex­pla­na­tions, that it is­n’t meant in a neg­a­tive sense and that one of them want­ed to say “ju­den­socke” in­stead, which from their point of view is not an in­sult? (are they f*ckin.. kid­ding me?)

[sun^15th, 7⁺¹ o’clock_p.m. in tem­pel­hof]^{🇩🇪🇦🇹🇨🇭} i get called “fotzen­ver­ste­he­rin”. (other) open al­le­go­ries, cited books & movies:

(not for­got­ten, to be done poet a poet, hope­ful­ly with less tor­ture and ter­ror in my head):

• lucifer, bearer of the light: dark, raw, loud, masculine, fascistic
• patriarchy (klerikal & sekular)
• satan (hebräisch für wider­sa­cher, opponent)
• onan, der auf das erbe seines vert­ters blickend, der witwe den nach­wuchs vor­ent­hält (vs. wich­sen sei gott­los)
• peter fischer: alle­gorie auf pet­rus, der je­den in sein dum­mes spiel (um den bes­ten men­schen der welt) zwingt („fischer! fischer! fischer!” von kir­chen-michi)
• michi, zer­trüm­me­rer der saat der schöp­fung?
• eva prüft den paradies-dude
• matriarchat: welche mutter ist ungerecht ggü. einem sohn?
• «life of brian»
• «nineteen eightyfour»
• «hitchhikers guide through the galaxy»
• «lord of the rings»
• «ghost in the shell» (for you to refer to)
• «das leben der anderen»
• fellini «la strada” (der große zampano)
• al­le­go­rie auf den kir­chen­ver­treter:
  „there's a bit of j. epstein in every man.”
  „danke jungs!”
  kirchen-michi: „darum geht es ein bisschen. mit scheiße zu werfen.”
  
• kir­chen-mi­chi: wenn du subs­tan­tive nicht groß schreibst, „schicken wir das nicht ab”? (tue ich aus äs­the­ti­schen grün­den nicht)³
• one of the main ac­cusers dreams of a sedated world, may­be to be able to show up, to dance, what more?
• last but not least: our “duty” need­ed re­mains an awk­wark dream as long as e. g. the wand stays ship­pable. 😉 and tbh: it's not just that. po­ten­cy prob­lems are more so on our side, i guess.

[mon^16th, 10⁺¹ o’clock_p.m. in tem­pel­hof] [pe­ter’s keys] the 1st perp. voice some­times sig­ni­fies to be Si­mon Petrus,

also called “the fisher”: es­caped from hell,^⚠claim12 hav­ing seen may­be two or three women in there, but thou­sands of men.^⚠claim12
forming an int­er­est­ing al­le­go­ry:
Mathew 16:19

and i will give unto thee the keys of the king­dom of heav­en: and what­so­ever thou shalt bind on earth shall be bound in heav­en: and what­so­ever thou shalt loose on earth shall be loosed in heav­en.

may­be Yēšūaʿ spoke of an en­trance per­son­al­ly and for every­one:
Luke 17:20

.. “the king­dom of God does not come with ob­ser­va­tion”; ..

Luke 17:21

.. the king­dom of God is with­in you.

[amend^pers.] you do not bind on earth (people’s “power” & “values” like money and else) too much.
Mathew 16:22

.. and said un­to Pe­ter, get thee be­hind me, satan: thou art an of­fence unto me: for thou savourest not the things that be of God, but those that be of men. ..

the voice in this sto­ry here plays a stu­pid game around the “best hu­man in the world”, claim­ing to play alone. others to win any­thing nev­er was in­tend­ed, but com­plete­ly de­gen­er­at­ed he tries to suck/co­erce every­body in, to con­trol, to tor­ture, to earn?
the very few times, he shout­ed that i’ve “won”, it was noth­ing more but a schiz­o­phre­nia di­ag­no­sis, drug­ging/se­dat­ing, a tor­tured body, sun­ken time, ter­ror and sad­ness.

[tue^17th, 0:05] “perp. voice I” awak­ens me via elec­tri­cal shock puls­es di­rect­ly in­to my brain (again),

be­cause he does­n’t like what i dream. af­ter re­insur­ing, they say that as a “drecki­ges ju­den­schwein” i shall show more grat­i­tude, they can do com­plete­ly dif­fer­ent.
[tue^17th, 0:24] they claim. it would be good, when i write, they want to be some am­a­teur sa.
[tue^17th, 0:25] they claim that they have seen me fart­ing at the mon­i­tor­ing of my body.

[tue^17th, 1⁺¹ o’clock_p.m. in tem­pel­hof] they do­n’t want to tell me, that their “game” they are pull­ing out of thin air by now ..

would take half a work­ing day?
[tue^17th, 14:25] my vir­tu­al neigh­bour del­e­gates an emer­gency call for the po­lice („ich muss das wei­ter­ge­ben”).
[tue^17th, 20:15]^{🇩🇪🇦🇹🇨🇭} täterstimme mit dem hinweis, „das” sei das ende vom lied. na dann ist ja alles gut. hab schon ge­glaubt, „das hier” fin­det nie ein en­de.

end of feb­ru­ary

[»the avengers«]^{🇩🇪🇦🇹🇨🇭} 🖻 zwei her­ren hin­ter tä­ter­stim­me 1 & -stim­me 2 wol­len ra­che an ei­nem po­li­zei­prä­si­den­ten neh­men, der ein „ex­em­pel” zu sta­tu­ie­ren schien? da­für las­sen sie sich in die ver­gan­gen­heit zu­rück­trans­por­tie­ren,^⚠behpt.!

[anm.: Sie/Gott könn­te das? aber wa­rum? und wie sta­tu­iert ei­ne exe­ku­tiv-be­hör­de ein exem­pel?]
um die­sen, we­ni­ge zeit nach sei­ner ge­burt, zu be­setzen und vol­ler hass sein le­ben zu ru­i­nie­ren? be­sag­ter mensch wird (da­durch aber?) nie prä­si­dent der ber­li­ner po­li­zei (und wür­de nie ein „ex­em­pel” sta­tu­ie­ren), hat den hass aber zu er­tra­gen. die ge­schich­te würde die­sen hass er­klär­ba­rer ma­chen? be­griff­lich, wie ei­ner sein le­ben opfert? und die sei­ner nächs­ten. für was? im grun­de ein lehr­stück über schick­sal, ei­ge­nen wil­len und op­fer. und na­he­zu gren­zen­lo­se selbst­ge­rech­tig­keit/ego­ma­nie?
[anm.: kann „stim­me” »rich­ter« des­we­gen be­haup­ten, ei­gent­lich be­reits im ren­ten­al­ter zu sein? be­ses­sen da­von, sich ei­nen jün­ge­ren kör­per („sei­nes” po­li­zei­prä­si­den­ten und „hu­gen­du­bels”) „zu gön­nen”? wie wür­de ki­ra/san­dra sa­gen: ge­rächt wird doch, wenn, dann die un­ge­rech­tig­keit. was ein ex­em­pel ist, ver­mag ich nicht zu sa­gen. er­folgt es im rah­men des ge­setzes? und sie sckicken sich an, un­ge­recht zu wir­ken?]

march, a. D. 2026

Footnotes

1. sec­u­lar/sa­cred/di­vine⁹ ↩

2. in these di­vine room or sur­round­ings it seems as if one not only has to take mood, prob­a­bil­i­ty, per­cep­tion incl. its in­ter­pre­ta­tions, re­la­tions and this strange flow in­to ac­count, but own ex­pec­ta­tions as well. in fact, they seem to play an ex­tra­or­di­nary role.
   and then there's Her/God and the prov­i­dence in gen­er­al. does She “take pro­pos­als” (so to say)? like in “shap­ing des­tiny”? ↩ ↩² ↩³ ↩⁴ ↩⁵

3. i tend to use low­er case let­ters (ex­cep­tion holy stuff &^{a very few}c.), which might look un­usual to some, but i’m not alone, bau­haus tried to fol­low the oth­er lan­guages of the world, in writ­ing ei­ther in cap­i­tal let­ters (e. g. he­brew or arab) or small. ↩ ↩²

4. ex­cep­tion: pro-for­ma charges filed for al­leged vi­o­la­tion of sec­tion XIII of ger­man stgb af­ter ear wit­ness­ing of a pos­si­ble crime on feb 14th, 2024. ↩

5. i am not al­lowed to write “God is real” be­cause then they can do some­thing which is­n't yet elab­o­rat­ed by them, but is hand­ed in “later”™ (by them). con­text is the de­riva­tion of an (“their”) “own” Yahweh (II), a woman they met some­where, (not on­ly) to be able to in­sult Gods name, ex­plic­it­ly not God it-/him-/her­self, for le­gal rea­sons. ↩

6. all of my (re­gard­ing) words and actions (those of a fal­li­ble or­di­nary mor­tal) are plau­si­ble deni­able (there­fore me­di­ate) and so will your per­cep­tion be too. ↩ ↩²

7. au­gust in­ten­tions in Her/Gods⁹ spir­it, our benev­o­lent Cre­atress, sure­ly mind­ing so-called free will of the in­di­vid­ual to care­ful­ly weigh­ing it against the greater good.
   [amend, sat, oct 18th, a. D. 2025] every(!) male coming into «my house» so far, is at least a rapist (a sex­u­al ha­rass­er), often a mur­der­er, while being as dis­res­pect­ful as he can be to every fe­male be­ing. you can­not be wel­come to a house, where you want to tor­ture and/or kill the ones liv­ing there. and of course you see the point in time to leave on our own.
   [:de::austria::switzerland:] ich muss nicht er­klä­ren, was hehre ab­sicht meint oder ein trans­pa­ren­tes „haus”, da der-/die­je­ni­ge da­rum weiß, der/die „zu se­hen” be­fä­higt ist.
   viel­leicht so­viel: ein „trans­pa­ren­tes haus” meint nicht: dring ein, fol­te­re mich mo­na­te­lang, nimm mein hab und gut, töte mich, über­neh­me mei­ne iden­ti­tät und lebe dann in mei­nem haus. das ist es nicht.
   ver­stehst du ge­schrie­be­nes nicht (oder willst es nicht), seine bil­der, al­le­go­rien & c., ist es viel­leicht nichts für dich. Ihr/Gott sei zum an­ge­bot ge­reicht, all je­nen, die durch un­ge­frag­tes „ein­drin­gen” in mein den­ken, ab­grei­fen mei­ner ge­dan­ken und/oder ma­ni­pu­la­tion mei­nes han­delns und/oder an­der­wei­tig be­deu­ten, ich sein zu wol­len und also wil­len zu ei­ge­nem trans­pa­ren­tem den­ken aus­drücken, die­se ei­ge­ne trans­pa­renz ggü. al­len in hehrer ab­sicht als ein großes ge­schenk(!) zu ge­wä­hren? Sie/Gott⁹ ist un­fehl­bar, Ihre Wege un­er­gründ­lich (und ihr wort in der bi­bel schwer zu fin­den, aus mei­ner sicht). ↩ ↩² ↩³

8. "insider" links ↩

9. She/God⁹ or (sa­lu­ta­tion) Her/They = God (rel. ref. or IEVE.LOVE
   [🇩🇪🇦🇹🇨🇭] Sie/Gott⁹ = Gott
   ↩ ↩² ↩³ ↩⁴ ↩⁵ ↩⁶ ↩⁷ ↩⁸ ↩⁹ ↩¹⁰ ↩¹¹ ↩¹² ↩¹³ ↩¹⁴ ↩¹⁵ ↩¹⁶ ↩¹⁷ ↩¹⁸ ↩¹⁹ ↩²⁰ ↩²¹ ↩²²

10. (ini­tial?) for­mer(?) per­pa­tra­tor (role) 1²² (voic­es are used by more then one per­son!),
    (own) aliases in or­der of ap­pear­ance: sebas­tian/mar­kus/chris­tian/pe­ter/si­mon^pe­trus?23/stefan/stephan/andreas „basti”™ (the )fi­scher/becke­dahl/woll­mers­ha­gen/schwein­stei­ger/pe­trus^?/rich­ter.
    [note of nov, 2025] pos­si­bly pro­tag­o­nist of more than one al­le­go­ry?
    [amend of jan, 2026] may­be just an idea (of a se­mi-trans­par­ent cloth), not ex­ist­ing for real (un­til to­day no proof).
    “he” claims that i am “his” “hu­gen­du­bel”, a ger­man book re­tail­er. he seems to be a con­fused mind.
    [note of dec 2025] as he seems to want to be me, ac­cus­ing me of kill­ing “his” mother, be­cause he killed mine in oct/nov 2022? which i would like to call a very weird state­ment.
    in parts, or (virtual) en­ti­ties using the voice, seem to be ego­maniac-sadistic para-/necro­philic socio­paths, at least one of them a mur­de­rer of more than a dozen schizo­phrenia patients, cruelly driven into sui­cide by tor­ture (i was supposed to be the 17th?), one of them a “mur­de­rer” of pre-school chil­dren (in send­ing them to sui­cide?) while play­ing god „for” them?
    after (un­con­fir­med) state­ments of mul­ti­ple dif­fer­ent (but un­known) voices, one of them is just an ordi­nary fraud­ster, asked to act as a false prophet to learn to read di­vine signs?
    pro­nounced telepathy ob­ses­sion since at least 2024.
    [note from nov, 2025: pos­si­bly over­layed by some kind of a sub­nat­ur­al crea­ture?]
    [🇩🇪🇦🇹🇨🇭] zitat »pe­ter fi­scher lebt auch nicht mehr so lang.« soll hin­weis auf »(Simon)Petrus« (der Fischer) (will er das auch noch?) sein?^{⚠suggestion?18}
    der na­me «fi­scher» fin­det sei­nen grund mglw. ein­zig und al­lein in ei­nem na­mens­schild in dem al­ten wohn­haus in rei­nicken­dorf, in dem ich bis feb. 2024 ge­wohnt ha­be.
    hin­ter­grund: ein ini­tial­tä­ter fragt mich an­fang 2021, wer er wohl sein kön­ne und ein herr fischer war eben der ein­zi­ge männ­li­che be­woh­ner, der in der nä­he zu ver­or­ten war und so also als ei­ne art stal­ker in fra­ge kam.
    [anm. 2025: aus heu­ti­ger sicht ge­ra­de­zu naiv, die be­spaßen mich selbst mehr als 12.000 km ent­fernt in den an­den noch, uhr­zeit egal, mit an­de­ren wor­ten: die las­sen sich „ihre deck­na­men” mglw. von ihren opfern ge­ben, um ma­xi­mal zu ob­fus­kie­ren?]
    seit etwa herbst 2020, erst­ma­lig auf­ge­fal­len durch übun­gen mit der kon­trol­le des sexu­al­triebs sei­ner „nachb­arn/-innen”
    [anm. 2025: aus heu­ti­ger sicht un­wahr­schein­lich, dass ich tat­säch­lich „ge­mein­sa­me” nach­barn²⁴ ge­hört ha­be.]
    einer der stimm-nutzer scheint ein ego­ma­ner nekro-/para­phi­ler sozio­path mit einer nei­gung zur fol­ter und induk­tion von angst/panik in sei­nen opfern zu sein? ver­mutl. selbst angst­stö­run­gen?
    an­gebl. vor­be­straf­ter betrü­ger, ein mgl. gdb²⁵ an­gebl. er­schli­chen.
    wähnt sich im 3. og (trep­pen­sei­tig links) des hin­ter­hau­ses der
    pan­kower al­lee 86 in
    13409 ber­lin (rei­nicken­dorf)
    woh­nend (klin­gel­schild »fischer«), ich selbst konn­te bis zum aus­zug nicht sagen, wer da nun wohnt. einigermaßen be­kannt war mir nur das erd­ge­schoss. mglw. nur bis 6. feb. 2024 „aktiv” (danach spo­ra­disch oder remote?).
    die stimme scheint manch­mal para­phil und sieht eine ideale welt wohl­mög­lich in ei­nem se­dier­ten zu­stand? ↩ ↩² ↩³ ↩⁴ ↩⁵ ↩⁶ ↩⁷ ↩⁸ ↩⁹ ↩¹⁰ ↩¹¹ ↩¹² ↩¹³ ↩¹⁴ ↩¹⁵ ↩¹⁶

11. since every(!) al­leged male (voice) en­ti­ty in my head re­spec­tive­ly Her room so far is al­leged­ly(!) at least a (ha­bit­u­al?) rapist (if not a killer/mur­der­er?), all of the per­se­cu­tors seem to be misog­y­nist peo­ple. they do not seem to have a lot more than de­spise for (all?) women. ↩ ↩²

12. op­po­nent’s claim
    [🇩🇪🇦🇹🇨🇭] be­haup­tung bzw. ver­such der ein­re­de (mei­ner/un­se­rer wider­sa­cher). ↩ ↩² ↩³ ↩⁴ ↩⁵ ↩⁶ ↩⁷ ↩⁸ ↩⁹ ↩¹⁰ ↩¹¹ ↩¹² ↩¹³ ↩¹⁴ ↩¹⁵

13. “time” or “age” to be un­der­stood as an al­le­go­ry de­scrib­ing a fourth vec­tor to span the room (in a math­e­mat­i­cal sense)? She/God⁹ does­n't “need” time, can “step in/out” at will and sees every­thing. this is close­ly con­nect­ed to om­ni­pres­ence/-science.[^omnscnc]
    btw: the room is still ex­pand­ing/de­vel­op­ing. for us (be­ing im­ma­nent) there's just one “time”: we are liv­ing on the crest of the (on­ly) wave of the (on­ly) “bang”/ex­plo­sion or (phys­i­cal­ly) ex­pan­sion of the (on­ly) room (uni­verse)? ↩

14. ange­zeigt ist extra-uni­ver­sale wirk­mäch­tig­keit und refu­gium, mind. zeit­weise nicht der physik unse­res uni­ver­sums unter­liegen zu müs­sen.^{⚠(betrugs-)suggestion} ↩

15. das sog. 1. gebot aus dem 2. buch mose, exodus 20:3 «du sollst keine ande­ren götter haben neben mir.»
    ist sehr bekannt. zu­min­dest mir aber, (bis­her) schlecht be­grün­det, i. s. e. eifer­süch­tigen gottes. besser habe ich es mit Ihr ver­stan­den.
    etwa (lang): lasst hier bitte nie­mand ande­ren rein. die gefahr wäre zu groß, er/sie macht hier etwas kaputt oder ist sonst­wie nicht in hehrer⁷ ab­sicht, dein eige­nes leben oder das deiner nächs­ten in gefahr. ↩

16. [🇩🇪🇦🇹🇨🇭] an­ge­zeigt sind extra­uni­ver­sa­le ins­tru­men­te, be­wusst(!) die phy­sik die­ses uni­ver­sums miss­ach­tend?^⚠behpt.12, was na­tür­lich nicht geht. da­zu pseu­do-ma­gi­sche werk­zeu­ge, wie hyp­no­se-stim­men (die aber kei­ne sind, son­dern ei­gent­lich nur „trig­ger-words” mas­kie­ren sol­len)? sämt­lich be­trug. ↩

17. «ve: per­pe­tra­tor role 2» (pos­si­bly her­zog/mül­ler?),
    born on march 5th, 1987 (or 1991)^? in linz, austria?
    [amend of jan, 2026] may­be just an idea of a se­mi-trans­par­ent cloth, not ex­ist­ing for real (un­til to­day no proof).
    tells peo­ple to be a movie di­rec­tor, when in reali­ty he filmed hun­dreds of peo­ple while they got tor­tu­red to death?
    [🇩🇪🇦🇹🇨🇭] seit juli 2024(?), an­gebl. pädo-sa­dis­ti­scher[^bmrdr] so­zio­path, dut­zend­fa­cher ba­by­mör­der und tat­be­tei­ligt an der grau­sa­men er­mor­dung von hun­der­ten men­schen vor lau­fen­den ka­me­ras zu zwecken der mo­ne­ta­ri­sie­rung?
    auf die aus­sage, er sei doch zu blöde, schu­he zu bin­den, erwidert er, er wür­de klett­ver­schlüs­se ver­wen­den. gibt’s so­was über­haupt noch?
    zi­tat: »fischer, gott sei dank sind wir so ka­putt, dass un­se­ren opfern nie­mand glaubt.«
    voll­kom­men de­gene­rier­ter geist, der sich nicht nur in per­so­nal­union mit dem bib­li­schen erz­engel mich­ael wähnt (doch statt als be­schützer der schöp­fung, als zer­trüm­me­rer ihrer saat auf­tritt), son­dern auch als „lieb­li­che stim­me der ver­nunft” und mo­ra­li­scher leucht­turm.
    auf­fäl­li­ger „papa”-spleen, mglw. früh­kind­licher miss­hand­lung ge­schul­det.
    arbei­tet an­geb­lich als be­treuer geis­tig be­ein­träch­tig­ter men­schen, die als eine art „opfer­pool” miss­han­delt wer­den? ↩ ↩² ↩³ ↩⁴ ↩⁵ ↩⁶ ↩⁷ ↩⁸ ↩⁹ ↩¹⁰

18. (attempt of be­ing) sug­ges­tive, in­clud­ing com­mon con­spir­a­cy theories.
    [🇩🇪🇦🇹🇨🇭] ver­such der sug­ges­tion, auch gän­gi­ger vts.
    ich er­in­ne­re mich, dass ei­nem der täter be­reits an­fang 2021 sehr wich­tig war, dass ich den un­ter­schied zwi­schen ei­ner sug­ges­tion und ei­ner ein­re­de ver­ste­he. darf ich fra­gen, warum? (ich bin kein ju­rist und das muss ich auch nicht sein)
    zur qua­li­tät: (bis auf zwei, drei) sind die „dar­ge­bo­te­nen” „sug­ges­tio­nen” mit dem „dampf­ham­mer” ser­viert, oft­mals mit stim­men un­ter­legt, die den sug­ge­rier­ten sach­ver­halt ein­fach im sinne der tä­ter be­haup­ten.
    und dann: wen in­te­res­siert es? was wol­len „die” über­haupt von mir? das hier ist kein spiel o. ä., son­dern mein le­ben! das, eines nor­ma­len men­schen. ↩ ↩² ↩³ ↩⁴ ↩⁵ ↩⁶

19. je­den­falls ha­ben die von „ve-pr1”¹⁰ bin­nen ei­ner nacht nur für mich im­por­tier­ten (knapp 20.000!?) klei­ne­ren trans­pa­ren­ten (und da­mit fast un­sicht­ba­ren), auf ge­hei­ligte men­schen ab­ge­rich­teten, trieb­täter die­ses ande­ren uni­ver­sums eine 2d-form. sie sind qu­asi nur in ei­ner fläche.
    und ich meine, so erschöpf­lich ist auch ihr gemüt: hass, miss­gunst und ein über­steu­er­ter zynis­mus, komplexer wird es nicht (und ich wun­de­re mich, wie die­ser be­set­zer der zwei­ten stimm­li­chen täter­en­ti­tät emo­tio­nal so stumpf ist, un­ter­stel­le ihm, tot zu sein, ein zom­bie). ↩ ↩²

20. für mich kommt kein strei­fen­wagen. rufe ich die wache direkt an, klären sie mich auf, miss­brauch des not­rufs „koste” 300,- EUR und ich willige ein zu zahlen, kommt dennoch nie­mand.
    das gebäude der staats­an­walt­schaft berlin zu be­treten hat mich fünf an­läufe ge­kos­tet, die entspr. staats­an­wältin ließ sich em­pfeh­len.
    auch sonst ist die sta berlin mehr als ab­ge­neigt. von dort so­wie der poli­zei ber­lin ist keiner­lei hilfe zu er­war­ten, dafür ist ge­sorgt, die ver­höh­nung und ohnmacht ihrer opfer ist ihnen wichtig und wird gren­zen­los zele­briert. ↩

21. «other-dimension-dude» or “be­set­zer” of «ve: per­pe­tra­tor role 2»¹⁷ shall allegedly be an enti­ty from an­other uni­ver­se, able to jump in human beings with ease and act on their be­half, only to show their worst side when­ever he^? wants to?^{⚠clm/sgstn1218}
    he also seems to ma­nip­u­late pos­si­bil­i­ty de­ci­sions on a quan­tum lev­el?
    [anm.: von michi-michi-michi ler­nen, heißt flie­gen ler­nen, oder wie? (auf die fr** viel­leicht.]
    [🇩🇪🇦🇹🇨🇭] an­ge­zeigt ist stand
    [14.06.] ein, sich als «erz­en­gel mi­chael» auf­spie­len­der trieb­tä­ter aus ei­nem an­de­ren, aber von ihm selbst ge­bau­ten,[^selbstgebaut] eher min­der­wer­ti­gen, räum­lich zwei­di­men­sio­nalen(?) uni­ver­sum¹⁹.
    er selbst scheint in sei­ner „ur­form” eben­falls zwei­di­men­sio­nal und trans­pa­rent¹⁹.
    in die­ser form ist es ihm an­geb­lich ohne wei­te­res mög­lich, feste materie wie boden, wände und türen zu über­win­den?¹⁸
    an­geb­lich kann er in un­se­rem uni­ver­sum in be­lie­bi­ge men­schen „sprin­gen” und min­des­tens tempo­rär die je­wei­lige persön­lich­keit über­neh­men, ohne dass das entspr. in­di­vi­du­um, bis auf un­erklär­liche zeit­ver­luste [anm.: selbst an mir be­ob­ach­tet], etwas be­merkt.^{⚠betrug/ein­re­de­ver­such}
    auch ist „er” angeb­lich in der la­ge, post­sy­nap­tisch zu wirken.^{⚠einredeversuch}[^empathie], ver­ein­fachend will er an­geb­lich auch di­rekt aus mei­nem ge­hirn he­raus, auch in an­de­ren zei­ten als mei­ner ak­tu­el­len, ope­rie­ren kön­nen.^{⚠einredeversuch}
    ei­ge­nen an­ga­ben zu­fol­ge will er auch der­je­ni­ge sein, der an wahr­schein­lich­kei­ten he­rum ma­ni­pu­liert und die­se im­mer wie­der in „worst cases” ver­kehrt¹²? ↩

22. the name pos­si­bly also to be seen as a role des­cription of some big­ger (crimi­nal) orga­ni­sation(s) of (al­to­geth­er) pos­si­bly more then 100'000 (most like­ly al­most ex­clusivly?) men. ↩

23. will er, der an­geb­lich(!) den fami­lien­namen «fischer» trägt, evtl. (der bib­lische) petrus, der fischer sein? ers­ter bi­schof der frü­hen chris­ten in? soll das viel­leicht ein witz sein? ↩

24. wohl eher un­se­re nächs­ten, im über­tra­ge­nen sinn. ↩

25. „ grad der behinderung, mglw. von min­des­tens ei­nem ini­tia­len tä­ter er­schli­chen. ↩

26. iden­ti­ty as the­ma­tized in ghost in the shell (based on this man­ga) or blade run­ner, not as in iden­ti­ty card. 😉 ↩

27. an alias or place­hold­er for resid­ual frag­ments of failed trials to built some­thing like a super­nat­ur­al be­ing, if there's some­thing like that and/or un­til i know bet­ter. ↩

28. tor­ments & tor­ture ↩ ↩² ↩³ ↩⁴ ↩⁵ ↩⁶

29. vir­tu­al as op­posed to be­ing real, such as ideas & c. ↩ ↩² ↩³ ↩⁴ ↩⁵ ↩⁶

30. re­gard­ing or in reference of [: sub­ject/top­ic] ↩

31. i won­der a lot, why there seem to be en­ti­ties shout­ing “lie” and are able to judge and punish me, only for try­ing to doc­u­ment some crime, while they seem to be able to claim (re­al­ly!) any­thing(!) and do­n't ever need any ex­pla­na­tion. i think it has some­thing to do with a divine back­ground, since some of the en­ti­ties some­times(!) claim to not be humans at all. which de­pends on the clock and some quan­tum me­chan­i­cal states of some par­ti­cles? tor­ture is real, them not. they are kil­lers, but only a little, while their vic­tims are very dead? where am i? still alive? ↩

32. “them” pre­sum­ably be­ing rude, misog­y­nist, male “nazi ter­ror­ists or alike, which i once con­sid­ered sec­u­lar per­pe­tra­tors around two (voice only) en­ti­ties which where nev­er able to prove their ex­is­tence in re­al­i­ty, but de­vel­oped into pro­tag­o­nists of a lot of al­le­gories, con­dens­ing in­to some kind of ideas even­tu­al­ly, not ex­ist­ing for real, the more this “story” moves on and gains some kind of di­vine back­ground? ↩

33. these en­ti­ties are proud be­yond mea­sure act­ing as my guardians of non-en­counter. sit­ting be­hind my fore­head, look­ing through my eyes and threat­en­ing me to rape every woman who even smiles at me.
    side effect: more than five years of celiba­cy. may­be en­abling other kinds of en­counters? ↩